crazie zee

2008-11-14T14:01:00.003+08:00

Been ages since i update anythng in my blog.. Basically speaking im not into blogging coz cant seem to know wat to write. =P Sowie ait gerls..
So i'll juz update briefly bout wat's happening in lyf ryte now..
1. im not werking animore.. so no income =( fortunately company wil be giving allowance money. But not much uh.. just enuf to pay SP services bill (which is freaking expensive i might say, thx sooo much to the 21% increase!), phone bills (plus the M1 bill that i stupidly open wif shaz. so basically xtra 35bucks just gone lyk dat every month)

2. skooling now under newcastle uni.. taking 1yr degree.. basic purpose is just to get more income after i graduate. it's not lyk im interested in study or nthng uh.. ahkx!

3. stil riding the same bike.. good enuf for my transportation.. maintenance oso not dat much. petrol oso not much. so save uh abit kan..

4. love lyf wise.. ermmmm.. kinda confusing uh. i oso dunno wat to say bout it.. im thnking of making it official wif him tmr.. dun thnk fooling ard wif his feelings is good uh. and further more, ever since he didnt cntact me since last sat, i've bn thnking of him alot diz wk.. must mean smthng ryte. i was kinda missing him alot but was too stubborn to say dat.. dun wan to lose face uh =P so after 5 days of no contact, i finally sms him. BUT he was kinda sarcastic wen we msg.. keep saying bout me n my guy fren, me n my guy.. wat the heck seh.. i thnk he got the wrng idea of me wen i said to him dat im going out wif my fren which is a guy of course. tmr going to go dinner to celebrate my dad's bdae.. he treating us la seh (but asked me to kip it a secret and tipu sunat dat i'm the one treating the family)

5. i miss wani.. long tym nva hang out wif her.. it's lyk we are getting kinda distant. understand understood uh.. she's now werking and skuling.. so hard to find tym oreadi.

dunno wat else.. so just these updates for now ait =)

2007-04-15T10:28:00.000+08:00

hee.. im back! it's been quite a while since i last update.. hardly got anythng to blog about la ppl..

so updates bout my lyf highlights..
i got a bike!! it's not brand new.. but it's nice.. im gonna call him Dear! hehe.. since i dun hv one..

first riding hym was abit akward ar.. not used to change gears w/o a clutch..

i was wif ma cuzin riding home.. she was riding in front.. moving in btw cars..

i tried to do the "selit meyelit" btw cars thng.. wahaha! hit a taxi's side mirror! wahah! kancong seyy.. dunno wat to do nxt.. told ma cuzin bout it.. she told me to turn back n wave n say sorry.. wahah..

dat's one highlight..

nxt is i go chosen to participate in ndp diz year.. Again! last tym was 8 years ago.. dat was in sec 1.. memories sey. miss those tyms..

niwae guys.. im starting my adv dip classes nxt wk.. 4 tyms a wk.. only my wednesdays are spared.. hmm.. k la betta den nothing..

saturdays gonna b packed too.. afta werking half day.. afternn will be ndp training..

soooo basically im free wed nyte n sundayz.. wat a dread ryte.. ahaha..

niwae diz is my Dear.. but i myt change his paintwork.. haven decide on one yet.. k cioz.. nothing else to talk bout. hee..

2007-03-03T19:52:00.000+08:00

dun noe watsup wif me diz few days.. juz bcoz of my sista taking my slippers w/o permission, i refused to go to my family gathering.. ahah.. merepekz..

2007-02-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

today i went on board again for lightship survey.. my god e ship's deck was sooo dirty. can hardly walk ard.. b4 we started our survey, e project engineer warned us to be careful.. dun stand too near to e turbines. coz the equipments were old. he said recently got an explosion. an engineer got injured. n if he were to stand any closer to e turbines, he mite hv died.. we were lyk.. errr.. go inside e engine room scared2.. wahah! so me & my partner in crime did alot of shortcuts. we estimate here n there.. but der was alot of walking invloved.. luckly e place we're assigned to was quite clean. so we finish e whole thng in merely 4 hrs time. wahh tired tired.. there were even times wen i felt lyk puking, fainting..
e owner offered an italian BLACK coffee. aww.. i dun drink BLACK coffee.. but he made e coffee oreadi.. no choice hv to drink it.. arr.. cannot swallow. bluekz!!
after e whole survey.. wen back to office. e rest of e dae i hv headache.. cant concentrate on my werk.. so didnt do my overtym.. reach home, sleep..
Sorie ehk jun.. not able to accompany u to shop for ur grad nyte stuff..

2007-02-19T11:41:00.000+08:00

CNY.. dying of boredom.. out to see movies twice.
epic movie.. rated a double 'L' show for Lame.. dun see.. ;oP
ghost rider.. out of 5.. i giv 3.. not bad ar..

2007-02-04T13:47:00.000+08:00

aww.. great! diz is wat i get afta everythng i did to e family.. nobody eva appreciate me.. kepala aku ni bleh di pijak2 kape.. ma sistaz getting on ma nerves. asked for a little help.. none eva cared. werk no diff. aku ni da mcm printer gerl.. ape2 suro aku print. all e freaking tedious werk dat dey dun even bother to do.. aku jugk yg kena. Thanx la eh u all.. Thx eh.

2007-01-31T18:15:00.000+08:00

no luck in e guy's department.. hrmph. but den.. as tym goes by, e more i thnk bout it, i owaez get angry n fed up. so damn useless la.. y muz u thnk bout dem, wen u noe dey wont b thnking bout u.. so y e f**king hell muz we nd to thnk bout dem. it's freaking irritatng la. all guys r e same. y e world nd to revovles ard so many JERKS! go e hell la.. u all r so not needed ard here. hate hate hate being played ard so many tyms! fed up to e max sia. it wld b soooo much peaceful w/o u guys ard.. argh! hate myself, hate dem, sick n tired of my lyf!

2006-12-31T12:26:00.000+08:00

im damn tired of my feelings being played around owaez!

2006-12-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

Sumpah i dun remember asking for ur opinion.. Ade ke si dis irritating engineer of mine went up to me from behind and said, "u like green". Juz bcoz i was wearing a green shirt.
Does it even concern him if i wear a little more green dat week. I was juz feeling green for goodness sake.
And wat was he thinking offering me if i want a calender full of gerls' photos showin boobs. Do i look like i need one?!?!
Damn! This people are getting on my nerves!

2006-11-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

Crazy at werk?? I dunno.. U tell me..

2006-10-23T16:48:00.000+08:00

Got a half dae off from werk 2dae.. yet being paid for it.. kewl huh.
at werk shared d kuih my mom made for raya.. my colleagues seem to luv it..
dey were really swit.. wished me hari raya n all..
politics i gez.. if u'r nice to dem, dey'll play nice to u too..
25th getting my pay.. sure nothing much to expect la.. pathetic HR ppl..
my father expect me to giv my cuzins duit raya.. wth ryte.. if my pay byk tk pe jugk..
i nd money for other thngs too u noe..
2dae gonna b a really bz day.. spring cleaning n all.. prepare diz n dat..
Niwae to all my Muslim frenz.. A very happy Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir dan Batin..
Klu zu de uat pape salah atau menyinggung perasan korg.. Yg tk sengaja atau sengaje..
Zu minta maaf ye.. =D
Niwae went thru pool pics we took.. Look at Nisa's killer pose.. All ready to shoot..

Crazie us.. trying to make sad pathetic faces.. i realised wat jun say was true.. im d most dramatic one..

Terok eh muka aku.. wahaha!

2006-10-22T11:18:00.000+08:00

Diz is d result of learning to ride bike.. Fall n fall.. bruises n more bruises.. =P But den i lyk d feeling of riding..

2006-10-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

5 peeps in ma practical group 2dae.. 4 guys & im d only gerl in dat group.. n gez wat! d only one who pass dat subject was only ME! wahahah! k k.. cannot talk big.. later might not be dat lucky..
now juz waiting for ma sis to pass dat subject so dat we can take d next subject together..
tmr taking car pratical lak.. wahaha! rich? no la.. i book long time ago oreadi..
i thnk something is wrong wif me.. tersengeh2 sorg pat keje.. ble terfikir sal diz guy i get to noe recently.. u noe who im talking about.. aww.. but den after dat i'll b lyk hrmph.. moody n all.. thnking back bout my pathetic past relationships wif those 2 jerks! Den i start getting conclusions most guys r d same in one way or another dat im not interested in.. dunno if u guys understand wat i mean.. aku tulis je wat i feel lyk writing..
haiz.. i miss him soo much.. i confess.. i still cant get over him.. keep pondering bout d past swit memories i had wif him.. look thru his few last sms dat i kept in ma fone.. look thru d pics i had wif him.. smiling to myself at first.. den ending up tears in ma eyes.. tym pass by so fast. its bn almost a year n a half since u left. i miss u soo badly dear. esp ur sis n familiy.. how i wish u'r by my side now.. i'll hug u n wont let u go.. :'(

2006-10-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

long tym nva bn blogging.. now i dunno wat to post..
hmm.. lets talk bout 2dae.. werk has been really sickening as usual.. ma engineer has been pushing werk to me.. i wud be such a blur queen.. dunno wat to do.. haiz.
another colleage of mine keep insisting to take adv dip wif him.. coz he was afraid to be taking it alone.. but den im still thnking bout it.. still unsure of my nxt step in studies..
any advice guys?
hmm.. niwae im taking riding lessons under skul wif sham.. ma sis oso taking it.. so can actually take together2.. waiting for my car tp test diz january.. hope for all d bez for dat..
nothing much to say for now.. even though i got lotsa tlak about.. maybe i juz dunno how to put it in words.. maybe wen i feel lyk talking bout it, den i'll post it aitz.
datz all for now yar guys.. miz u guyz..

2006-06-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

Today's frenster horoscope for taurus peepz ::

The Bottom Line
It will be quiet today, but that is only because you are in the eye of the storm.
In Detail
You're moving into a quieter phase of life -- and you will be spending time on the sidelines for a while. But this time out of the action will be a welcome relief. You've got some big changes coming in the near future, so use this quiet time to prepare. There are new directions you can take things in -- and all that's missing is a real plan. So try to come up with one. All this introspection will fade soon, so delve as deeply as you can now.

PS. i read diz wif goosebumps. wahah! im serious! lyk i can relate to it.. juz hope d 'storm' is kind to me.. hee =D

Niwae i rmmbr bck d tym wen i was in d cruise.. i had ma 'future' read.. wahah..
basically wat she say was im gonna meet a special guy late diz yr.. hmm now is only d mid 2006. so cant expect much.. ahah! den she said im not gonna last in ma first job (ie.Pizza hut?) but im gonna find ma nxt job interestng (ie. ma current job is interesting) hmmmm.. den she said im gonna get married b4 i reach 23.. whoa! datz early.. den im gonna hv a stable n happy marriage. (datz good to hear).. gonna hv 2-3 kids.. wahah! kk.. datz all d details i rmmbr..

2006-06-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

wat happen diz wk.. hmm..
- learned to dance romba (wateva d spelling is) on tue..
- was late on wed for ma company transport.. had to fork out for taxi..
- during prac, car stalled in d middle of d road & knocked d kerb at a junction.. haiz
- for d very first tym i did OT 5 days in a row.. hardworking? No.. juz nd d money..
- sat treat ma family n cousins to watch Xmen3 at Lot1.. 9.50 per tix.. 10 ppl including me.. hmm..
- sun went to sentosa.. me n ma cousin juz tag along wif emma & apit n his NS frens..
- i realised dat ma temper becoming worst.. get angry so easily diz few days..
ok so basically datz it la. Nothing interesting..

2006-05-28T01:20:00.000+08:00

Out wif emma n apit on sat.. since ma plan to meet up wif ehem tk kesampaian.. haisey.. went shopping at far east.. wanted to buy new jeans since i cant fit into d jeans emma bought recently.. k so hv to get one for myself coz we can no more share jeans.. walk our way to heeran.. otw saw a nice small bag.. bought it for only 10 bucks.. at heeran bought a green top. den at cenilesuire.. emma bought me a very NICE ring.. der's a gap wif a crystal in d middle.. my own engagement ring! =) it was kinda expensive for a ring lar.. but who cares. die da nk blaje. org aru dpt gaji katekn. hehe.. actaully it juz bcoz emma lost ma ring dat imran bought for me.. so i asked her if she wanna make it up to me.. hehe. den we bought 2 more tops.. one red n one dark brown. shopping spree for us 2dae.. nd to take ma mind off him oso.. den we went to book tickets for Xmen3.. Tix selling super fast sia.. in d end, we watch d 2.15am movie.. while waiting for d movie.. we went to E2max on lvl9.. since i dunno how to play games so juz surf net only. writing ma blog too. ahah! toodles.. wanna watch Xmen3 oreadi.. heard its nice.. hope it is.. =)

2006-05-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

i has been a really long wk for me.. cant go on net.. got comp problem.. alot has bn happening diz wk.. passed my BTT test on tuesday.. took a half day leave on friday. went to BBDC to apply for my PDL.. den i booked my practical lessons.. 5 sessions at one go! dat cost me $250 topz! went to emma's graduation ceremony afta dat.. she looked gorgeous.. werk has bn ok for me.. beginning to luv ma job.. but kinda bored w/o herwan ard to talk to.. mish him lar.. niwae sat plan to meet up wif ehem got canceled.. coz he didnt msg me.. very very lame reason.. he said he wont msg me coz he wanna make me miz him lotz n lotz.. den i said.. "i dun really care.. bye." i was juz playing ard.. n furthermore i dun wanna make ma feelings for him too obvious. den he didnt msg me sia.. until i msg him y i havent hear frm him recently.. he said.. "coz u dun wan me to msg u.." i was lyk.."huh!" oookkk la.. if diz way, i wanna make him ma bf.. kinda hard sia.. ahah! nva mind.. juz frenz first.. i dun feel lyk having a bf now anyway.. juz a waste of my tym. niwae gurls.. i juz heard frm wanie dat jeff has a new gf.. amcm! gud luck to her ehk =P

2006-05-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

2006-05-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

he msg me on monday.. hee.. happy as ever!

he asked me if i got miz him..

i said,"of course.. miz sgt2 pat u.." =P

i asked him d same qn..

he said, "Miz lah.. Kalau tk tkkan nk msg kan.."

haiz.. smiling wide.. frm ear to ear! wahah!

but cannot let my hopes high..

dun wanna hurt myself again..

niwae tmr mght be goin onboard ship again.. hv to measure some dimensions..

d last tym i went onboard.. i came out wif cheeks all PINK! natural blusher.. hehe.

nxt wk gonna be herwan's last wk at werk coz NS calling oreadi..

haiz.. gonna miz him. had a real fun hanging out wif him at werk..

ppl tot we're couples coz we're owaez 2gether.. ahkz!

actaully ehk.. he's quite good looking to thnk bout it.. wahah!

nva mind.. gonna c him again during graduation..

2006-05-14T10:07:00.000+08:00

ring ring.. my hp rings.. k k datz not d ringtone..
private call.. so i juz picked up d fone..
den d other end SINGS..
"bila kau senyum, ku gembira.."
"bila kau sedih, ku menangis.."
i FREAKED out! i ended d call immediately..
wth sia.. crazy or wat diz guy..
but his voice sounds lyk imran's.. my ex..
but cannot assume anitin..
he called again twice.. did i picked up d fone?
NNOO! rejected d call..

2006-05-12T15:22:00.000+08:00

longin for ur sms in my fone..
kept thnkin of ya at werk..
miz ya lotz..
but i hv diz feelin dat u'r keepin ur distance frm me..
my mistake..
shldn't hv told ya dat i lyk ya..
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Boy, boy I'm goin' outta my mind
And even though I don't really know you
I must've been runnin' outta time
I'm waiting for the moment I can show you
And baby boy I want you to know
I'm watching you go
I'm watching you pass me by
It's real love that you don't know about

discrimination at werk

2006-05-12T13:48:00.000+08:00

went to d HR dept.. to edit my contract..
my OT rate is different now.. from $7 to $6 per hr.. coz my pay is lower den $1450..
ok dun mind bout dat part..
den i found out somethng not soo interesting bout being a scholar n being under bond wif a company..
if u'r a scholar.. u'r being kinda underpaid den d rest of ur collueges dat r not a scholar..
even a bangladeshi starting frm a trademan on d yard, den transfered to engineering dept afta 2 yrs of werkin is being paid reasonably well compared to me!
he's paid MORE den me.. imagine dat! itz not fair leh..
i mean we scholars shld be equally treated la..
if i knew bout diz.. certainly i dun wan to be under bond..
i'll rather do d hard way of finding a job.. sendin resumes, go for interviewz..
in d end, u'll still be paid betta ryte..
hello.. difference btw me n my fren w/o bond is $200 leh..
in one yr.. d diff wld be $2400!! imagine dat in ur savings!
damn it la..
fucking scholarship!
gonna b stuck being here for whole 3 yrs!

2006-04-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

Aisey Bedah! Thngs at werk seems sooo stressing.. which made me thnk wat to complain in my blog 2dae..

i felt lyk crying again.. Soo helpless at werk..

Giv me 3 drawings.. 2 of d drawings hv 2 pages.. n diz aint no A4 size paper.. itz A1 size!

(FYI : A1 paper is 8 tyms bigger than A4 paper..)

Asked to study n understand dem.. Afta dat calculate the weight. Sound easy ryte?

NOOOO... Itz not!

Soo hard to visualise wen u dun noe wat the thngs looks lyk in the first place..

There's soo many thngs i wanna ask but i was kinda afraid if i were a nuisance to dem coz for asking to many qnz..

If only i cld understand n speak mandarin.. thngs wld be much more easier.

Coz mostly in my sectn r china peepz.. hard to communicate wif dem..

I was dreamy at werk 2dae.. hmm.. lets make dat dreamy EVERYDAY at werk. Wahah!

Den go mit my sis.. Went to BBDC n register for my car licence..

At least somethng good came out frm ma dae today.. =)

2006-04-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

Wkend was great.. To b more specific.. my sunday was great.

Saturday juz sit at home.. =oP

My sis got free tix to science centre for 5 peepz..

So she tot it might be kewl if we siblings go out n have fun together for a change..

Since der's one more xtra tix.. I brought along my big bro fazli..

Met him at Jurong east mrt.. He wore pink colour shirt.. wahaha! no offence la.. But PINK?! okok.. He still looks good.

Spend our tym at science centre wif ma sistaz.. Me n emma kept disturbing fazli.. wahah.. but he dun really mind..

Basically d whole dae was fun fun fun. Got to spend tym wif ma lovable sistaz n my close pal.

2006-04-21T14:28:00.000+08:00

--------[[ APRIL BABY ]]---------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hott but has brains.
Wahaha! Amcm? Im an april baby..
Do i fit all those descriptn above?!

2006-04-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

send out a break up msg on monday.. till now no response.. neither sms nor calls.. i dun care.. with or w/o his aknowledgement.. im declaring myself SINGLE! ahah! lets enjoy d single lyf.. woohoo! =)

2006-03-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

Im bored.. bored to death here.. no more werkin PH. Miz dat place lotz except d 2 managers. =PWaiting to start my werk at JPSL as an assnt engineer.. ahah! sound kewl ryte.. but den d job is kinda boring.. sit in front of the comp only n do draftin. B.O.R.I.N.G

2006-02-02T10:37:00.000+08:00

Juz finish werk.. tired tired..
D whole dae i kept rmmbrin him.. bout my past..
Still cant seem to get over him.. almost 7 mths oreadi leh! My goodness..
Watz d hell wrong wif me?! Sometyms i wonder myself too..
I miz him sooo much! But i hv to forget him for ma own gd.. But itz soo hard coz being wif him was d bez thng dat hv happen to me..
Arghh.. Sometym i juz hate ma lyf.. Itz so super pathetic!
Wif all d skool assignments due.. Final year written report due diz 3rd feb, which i haven even start a single thng.. Hv to work part-tym futhermore to get ma own allowance..
Now struggling to survive wif juz merely $5 in ma wallet!
See how pathetic my lyf is.. Shheesh!

2006-02-02T10:26:00.000+08:00

testing testing..
haha! finish ma assignment early.. n now signin up for blogspot!
find it difficult n struggling to understand.. man..
but still learnin..
any tips guys?